Always follow through..

As you may have read in Getting to this point. our journey to start a family began in California. With the decision made to start our family, we mapped out a timeline that would never be followed.

Trying to conceive a child was a job that I could never retire at, but still it was work. The hardest part throughout the conception process was trying to convince myself that I could actually make a child. I tried to keep my wife from taking "the test" as long as I could, hoping to save myself from the disappointment of failure at least an extra day. However, being the strong willed person that my wife is, she not only took the test but she took an early detection test so that I could find out that I'm a failure at reproducing as soon as possible.

I can only describe the moment after seeing those two pink lines as a state of nirvana, filled with disbelief. I have to apologize to my wife for the complete lack of emotion expressed, but much like an old computer given to much information at once, I froze. Fortunately with some coaxing from my wife I was able to render something of a Hallmark moment. After a few days of riding cloud 9 we were given the official word from the hospital, its a baby!

Now the decision ahead was when to tell everyone. Well show me a couple that can go the three months without telling anyone and I'll eat my hat. So, now that everyone knew, a week later, it was time for all the "what if's" to start. Now I'm not sure exactly what all the classic stages are but denial has to overshadow all others because I don't think that one ever goes away.